Selma Blair is opening up about her June 20 plane outburst when she was removed from a flight on a stretcher while traveling with her 4-year-old son, Arthur Saint.
On June 20, the actress was taken by stretcher off of her return flight from Cancun, Mexico to Los Angeles after having an outburst on the plane, an official close to the situation confirmed to PEOPLE.
During Wednesday’s sit-down interview with The Talk, the 44-year-old actress, who admitted to being well in the four months since the incident, discussed what took place and is hopeful that “everyone on the plane is doing fine by now, too because it was really disruptive.”
“I am someone that should never drink and I rarely do — I don’t drink anymore — but I did. I was going through something, I had a glass of wine, someone gave me a pill that I thought was something I had taken before, which I don’t take on a regular basis, it was something completely different. Very bad choice. And I had a total psychotic blackout,” the actress explained.
She continued: “It was horrible and frightening and I had empathy for myself actually afterwards because it was actually so out of character for me, especially because I’m a mother.”
Following her outburst, which the actress said was “terrifying,” she was taken to a clinic where she was hooked up to an IV and went home hours later.
“I went home two hours later, but there were so many paparazzi and I just thought, ‘Oh my god, what have I created?’ I felt horrible. My son was with his father and he had slept through it. I knew he was going to sleep — he had headphones on, and that’s why I took this pill anyhow, like ‘Oh my God, I’m exhausted. I have to get home and take care of my son.’ Bad choice all around. I totally own it, will not happen again,” Blair told the hosts.
In the four months that have passed, Blair said that she has forgiven herself, but she continues to abstain from drinking and keeps the incident at the forefront of her mind as a reminder to resist drinking.
“I keep it alive in me every day. I forgive myself, but I keep it alive like this is — things can go really wrong and humiliating,” she stated. “Someone had a party the other day and said, ‘Oh, can I get you a glass of champagne?’ I said, ‘No, I’m good.’ She said, ‘No, really. One glass, just drink.’ And I was like, ‘Google me.’ “